Heather Rae El Moussa opened up about her time on Selling Sunset, the Netflix reality series that follows a group of real estate agents selling multi-million dollar homes in LA.

El Moussa was one of the original cast members of the Adam DiVello-created show, appearing full-time throughout its first six seasons. The reality TV personality made a brief appearance at the beginning of Season 7 but left on maternity leave. She recently announced she was not returning to the show and found it a blessing.

“It was a blessing that I wasn’t asked to come back because I’m so much happier filming my show with Tarek,” El Moussa said on the latest episode of The Skinny Confidential Him & Her Podcast.

El Moussa now stars with her husband Tarek El Moussa on the HGTV show The Flipping El Moussas, saying, “We’re co-producers on our show so we pick the hours.”

“With Selling Sunset, I never knew when I was going to be filming,” she continued. “It was last minute, it took over my life, it was hard to do my real job — real estate. It was hard to do anything else.”

El Moussa said the schedule was so demanding she would come home crying and had little time to share with her family, noting, “It was crazy. They just want more and more and more and you saw me on the show.”

As far was the show is concerned, El Moussa says the environment was “very toxic.”

“I pretty much was level-headed almost the whole time. I was kind of friends with everyone and I kept things pretty chill in my life,” she said. “Yeah, it’s very toxic. You’re around a bunch of women that everyone wants to be stars on the show, you know, number one. And they’ll kind of do anything.”